Laptop hard drive fried and short-circuted my motherboard.

I bought a new laptop.

The End.

PS: I am not looking forward to re-installing iTunes for the 57465743839875th time.

So, I thought I'd update before I went to shower.

The new job is nifty. I like it, working with the public. Sometimes the flu clinics are boring, but Cosco is always fun; lots of people. The ladies I've worked with are spectacular.

Other than that, there's not much going on: The usual WoWage. Though! One of my WoW dudefaces lives in Riverside and is having a Halloween party, so I get to go to that. :3 Lame, but hey, it's social.

Started therapy. Well, sort of. I don't really wanna talk about it much, but yeah. I'm fucked up. But the good news it isn't just romantically; it mostly stems from the inability to socialize. Great news, right? ._.

Oh! I talked to Jesse on the phone last week! He's doing okay, we had fun. I miss hanging out with him. God, was that really 6 years ago? I'm so fucking old. Seriously, catching up with him was like 'Oh, the good ol' days.' But those are long gone now. Bleh.

Sorry. I'm rather boring.

Feeling: tired
Listening To: "If Only (Quartet)" -- The Little Mermaid on Broadway

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Feeling: happy
Listening To: "Dead on the Dancefloor" -- Ultraviolet

I got a job.

It's seasonal for working at flu clinics all over San Diego County. 17 an hour for giving shots.

Sweetness.

Feeling: happy

So, I decided to make an entry addressing my current status with my life.

I guess this started when I was talking to Dennis' boyfriend, Noch, last night when he joined my server to RP a Death Knight in my guild. He was talking about how wild I was and stuff and I said, "Fun? I have no fun anymore."

That's shitty. I mean, really? I'm almost 25 and I feel like everything just died. I dunno, part of it was my own fault. I think being with Dan had a lot to do with it. We were so involved with ourselves that we didn't want to hear criticism from others. And eventually, after we broke up, I didn't know what people thought of me.

So, I kind of hid from everyone. Dennis was right; I should have never dated him. I was a full believer in giving everyone a chance, but I ruined my life with it. I don't attribute losing my job to him-- actually, if I hadn't lost my job and realized how horribly we got along, we may still be together.

I feel shitty for some of the way I treated people-- just distancing myself to avoid judgment. And I think Dennis and Berna were two of the main people that I did that to, not because I was necessarily afraid what they thought of me, but I was afraid of opening up.

I am nowhere near innocent in the downfall of that relationship. I did a lot of stupid things, but it was really doomed from the start. We should have never gotten back together after I allowed him to break up with me on Valentine's Day-- of all the fucking days in the world. I allowed myself to be treated the way he treated me. I may have deserved being yelled at sometimes, but no one has the right to yell at me to the point where I'm blubbering and can't even talk. No one has the right to tell me my faults when they have the same exact faults.

He always accused me of being addicted to World of Warcraft. I play a lot, and sometimes I have had trouble with time management. But I never ditched work to play, and when real life issues came up, unless it was petty RL drama shit, I walked away from it.

Like I tried to explain to my father, it's become an outlet for me, not the game itself, really, but what I've done with it. Once I moved to a roleplay server, I spent more time writing about my characters, making events, hosting roleplay.. shit like that.

I think he's just worried I'm not living to my "full potential". I can see that. I try, but I always become held back. For fuck's sake, I've been looking for work, but I have yet to find anything as a LPN/LVN-- RN's are the one's in demand.

And I can't afford school. Which sucks. Maybe next semester. Though I might have gotten a ding on a job. My only issue is I'm still learning to drive and I only have my permit. Guh. If people weren't insane with driving down here, I'd invest in a bike and ride everywhere, even if it did suck.

Anyways, back on topic. I'm going to make an effort to make plans with the people still left here instead of being humiliated over a grave mistake. Also, Joe is coming out for my birthday. <3

Feeling: calm
Listening To: "Da Mystery of Chessboxin'" - Wu-Tang Clan

So, I haven't posted anything of value in awhile. I guess I've sort-of dedicated this LiveJournal to my life, right? I've had the damn thing since I was 17. >:o

So, update time!

I came back from Florida July 3rd. I miss Joe terribly-- along with all my "WoW Friends".

For those of you who don't have me friended on MySpace (it got fix't) or Facebook, here's the Photobucket Link: http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v11/mori_no_karasu/Floridahahahaha/

Shortly after, my grandma entered the hospital with a UTI and later progressed to pneumonia. She was in the hospital for a week, I was there for 5 days and ended up with a cold myself.

In other news, I'm looking at possibly going back to school since I -still- cannot seem to find a job. My dad can pull up a google page with a ton of listings, when I type the same thing, I get nada. For some reason. o_O I have my resume on HotJobs and Monster already.

Anyhow. So, I think I'm gonna go back to school. As to where, not sure yet. Going to Kaplan in San Diego to discuss my options with them since I got my LVN through them.

Feeling: hopeful
Listening To: "Sang Real" -- Dredg

Those of you friended on my MySpace, my account was deleted (haven't gotten any answers yet), but I'm still on Facebook (www.facebook.com/bombshellness) for those of you who wanna follow me on there.

Still trying to figure out what happened, not really upset or anything over it-- more curious.

Anywho.

Current Location: Joe's House.
Feeling: curious

I'm in Indialantic again. Going to Gainsville on Monday to meet more WoW nerds and two of my four wiefs. And my mistress/boob twin is coming in for a week also. We're going to watch all of True Blood (I bought it) and do make-up and drive Joe generally insane.

Woo~

Then off to my grandmother's July 9th again for the reversal surgery. I get to care for her. :3

My life is boring. If you guys wanna know shyte, comment. D:

Current Location: Joe's House.
Feeling: quixotic

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